March Splinters..

…just a few ragged-edged splinters from the log I have kept of life. That is all this will be. It seems life mainly consists of collecting as many memories as possible, at this stage of winding down and saying goodbye to a country and people we deeply love. It is the season of rain, which is East Africa at it’s finest. Every day I tuck the beauty into my heart–the endless beauty of green, growing things, and children catching bugs and picking guava. The throb of music, the scent of eucalyptus, the sing-song call of vendors selling greens, and ‘my’ patchwork mountain. The array of personalities and people and God’s wonderful workings in the children of men. Open air markets where I buy mounds of fresh food, the Strange Long House we live in, and the flow of KiSwahili. I might even miss dry season, who knows?

I’m packing. I try to pack the ache deep into one of the totes, but it never stays there, insisting on watering my eyes and twisting my heart at random times. I have decided it is okay to ache and to cry. It is all good for the soul. C. S. Lewis once said, “By the way, don’t weep inwardly and get a sore throat. If you must weep, weep a good, honest howl.” I like that advice.

Before the howling truly begins, though, we have nine more weeks of beautiful living here in Isyesye. We are trying to capture it, mostly in our hearts and a little with the camera. Only a little because the best moments are impossible to capture with a piece of technology.

A passion flower bloom–a small hidden marvel.

Swinging in the rain mixed with sunshine
A picnic, just because the sun was shining.
Kiwira baptism–a piece of heaven under the banana trees.
when a mango is so juicy you need to eat it in the bathtub…or outside. =)
baby bunnies

Before the packing (and the howling) begins in earnest the Kiwria, Ivuna, and Isyesye churches came together for an Easter seminar. The group was small, but so precious. Definitely my favorite moment of the three days was after communion, singing “Wana Baraka.” All the hearts in the room were nearly bursting with joy. It will be a precious memory tucked away in my heart forever. Those are the moments when i wonder how we will ever say goodbye, till I remember that God is the hub. What God owns is safe and cared for. I have discovered that the perceived loss of letting go is not a loss at all. The ‘grasped’ is a selfish poison whereas the ‘ungrasped’ becomes a gift to be fully enjoyed. Our work is meant to give us joy but it is never meant to fill our souls.

This past week the new Water of Life office and library was finished and opened! We had a few days of uncertainty as the day Tim was planning on opening it, the newly renovated building was marked with a red X, which means it will need to be torn down to make way for a new market road. After all the building and fixing up, that was disconcerting. They tore the roof off a neighboring building, but that is as far as they got. And Tim was told to move in…”it could be a few years till they actually do it.” So that is what we did, hoping that perhaps they will come up with a better idea for a road eventually.

And that is the end of the splinters I gathered. The hustle and the bustle of the past few weeks was inspiring and beautiful… but now I’m enjoying the quiet. I’m glad that life is a combination of rest and work, because I really need the rest when it comes. Time to gather my thoughts and fluff my feathers, kiss my babies and weave words.

Mbarikiwe! (Be blessed)

My God, I Thank Thee

“My God, I thank Thee, who has made,

The earth so bright

So full of splendor and of joy,

Beauty and light.

So many glorious things are here,

Noble and right.”

“I thank Thee, too, that Thou hast made

Joy to abound

So many gentle thought and deeds

Circling us round,

That in the darkest spot on earth

Some love is found.”

“I thank Thee more that all our joy

Is touched with pain,

That shadows fall on brightest hours,

That thorns remain–

So that earth’s bliss may be our guide,

And not our chain.”

“I thank Thee, Lord, that Thou hast kept,

The best in store,

We have enough, yet not too much

Too long for more.

A yearning for a deeper peace,

Not known before.”

“I thank Thee, Lord, that here our souls,

Though amply blest,

Can never find, although they seek,

A perfect rest.

Nor ever shall, until they lean

On Jesus’ breast.

– Miss Adelaide A. Procter

When it Rains…it Pours.

The weather in Southern Tanzania hasn’t yet learned temperance. We have gone from dry parchedness to floods of rain, for weeks on end. The front porch steps are growing moss and I think our toes will too before long. Most days it feels cozy; I pull the curtains and turn on the lights and make tea. The dripping rain lulls us to sleep at night and wakes us in the morning. And sometimes roars in such fury that lots of the flower bed soil gets washed onto the patio and the whole lawn is under standing water. Some days it feels as if we need some sunshine to cheer the soul, but only a few months ago we were wishing for one drop, I remind myself.

The strength of East African rains is one-of-a-kind. When I stepped into a puddle of water in our bedroom the other day it brought back flashbacks of similar downpours in the village. We loved our grass roofed bedroom because of the cooling effect, but oh, the rain. Even with six inches of grass, put on by a professional grass roofer, we most always had drips and drops and puddles in our bedroom. We kept a piece of plastic on top of the mosquito net frame and the sound of drops of rain hitting plastic was our music during nights of rain.

It might sound primitive, but we still felt like the rich ones. One morning after an especially hard rain, we sat at the breakfast table, listening to the rumble of falling latrines and house walls. Our little neighbor girl couldn’t walk for a long time as part of their house wall had fallen on her. Many latrines fell every year. On those sodden mornings our whole world felt slightly unsteady. And then one morning our latrine fell too, with a horrible sickening thud. Without choosing to, we could suddenly relate to many of our neighbors as we dealt with the aftermath. The next one we built survived through many rainy seasons and is still standing there, as far as I know.

Perhaps by now, there’s enough baked mud bricks and tin roofs in use, to make the Ivuna houses safer. But this year the rains are heavier then ever and brought a new problem. The river flooded more then any of the wazee (old men) ever remember, ruining the crops beside the river, flooding out the wells and shorting out the solar pump system. The river banks eroded, uncovering and breaking out the water line. So, for an indefinite time, Ivuna village is back to dipping water from shallow wells beside the river and carrying it up the embankment to the village. We can hear the roar of the river in our memory as if it were just ten minutes down the path as it used to be… but in fact, we’re 100 kilometers away and can’t even go help make repairs on the water system.

So we look out the window at one more day of fog and rain. We make cinnamon rolls and do Math tests and dishes.

Maybe the sun will shine tomorrow.

Our drowning garden.

Musings from the New Year…

Hundreds of small fire crackers explode on the street outside our house. It’s New Year’s Eve. We’re all lined up on the deck at midnight, greeting the neighbors. The Swahili New Year is always filled with joy and cheer. “Heri ya mwaka mpya!” (new year blessings to you!) “Asante, tumevuka salama!” (Thank you, we have crossed over safely).

It’s January 2021 and I feel a sense of relief. For too long I felt like a frightened horse when I thought about facing this year; the frightened horse who refuses to step into an unfamiliar barn. Standing there, nosing around, staring into the dark doorway. The problem is, I’m not a horse, even if we do share a phobia of unfamiliar places. The horse can refuse to cooperate and everyone will forgive him because, after all, he’s just a horse. But, of course, I can’t run and neither do I want to. Time moves at the same pace, relentless and unsympathetic to any fears we might have of it’s future uncertainty. But in the space of time we’re in, God IS.

I wanted to dance through that doorway and feign an exuberance familiar to carefree personalities, but alas…I still hate change and cling to the old with desperate sentimentality. And 2021 will be a year of change for our family. And as I often do, I overthink the change and it becomes worse then the actual thing I’m fearing. The future is always scarier than today.

Today there are floods of rain and tiny minutes of golden sunshine. The surprise of happy bean sprouts that I thought were all going to rot. The quizzes and tests written in boyish scrawl. Kasia’s sweet voice singing “I have decided to follow Jesus.” Books and words. Lemongrass tea and chickpea coconut curry. God and His eternal rule over this broken world. Joy is being handed to me because God IS.

The journal I was using conveniently filled itself the last day of 2020. On the cover it says, “Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her.” At the beginning of the year I read that verse and hoped the Lord would fulfill some of my fondly held dreams. One of them was adoption. I assumed that if we make ourselves available to God in His cause and passion for the orphans, He would certainly take us up on the offer. But I found out that they were only my dreams and not His promises. Instead we had crushing disappointments to wade through. But God did fulfill His promises. I learned that He is unchanging, absolutely trustworthy, and dependable. Often God felt disturbingly silent. I had to absorb the fact that yes, bad things do happen and things can be absolutely confusing, and God doesn’t rush down to explain it all. I can throw hissy fits or go silent, but when I choose to look at God again, He is there. Tender and agonizingly unchanging. He does not coddle us, or quickly pacify us, but teaches us to redirect our longings, straight to Himself.

If there is one lesson which 2020 taught me, it has been that we are not in control. We had plans and hopes, giving heart and soul into things which ended so differently. Like Claudia Lehman wrote in her book Under a Silent Sky, “God has shattered my cage of tidy theology and expectations… It is a terrifying and beautiful experience. There is no truer worship then to honor Him for who He is when what He is doing disappoints us..”

Or, when people disappoint us. God cannot be held accountable for the devastating choices of people. He grieves over this world’s brokenness too, and being part of the fight for righteousness will mean carrying a portion of His grief and a portion of His joy.

And even when we disappoint ourselves. There’s plenty of our own brokenness which teaches us to lay aside expectations of ourselves and focus on the one Stability and Goodness there is–Jesus Christ. The upside down year of 2020 taught me my own undoneness.

2020 will go down in history as the year of Covid-19 and rocky elections. Our security and normalcy was disrupted. We don’t know what this year will bring us. But that’s okay. What God has promised is all we need.

~Patience, when travel and plans are disrupted.

~Strength to stand firmly on the truth of God’s word no matter the laws and leaders of the land.

~Joy and excitement, because we have a better world coming.

~ Peace, no matter what, no matter where.

~Eyes to see the wonders of GOD and what He is doing across the world. Faith to believe that His grand purpose is being accomplished.

And some day soon we will “vuka salama” (cross over safely) not only into another year, but into His glorious presence.

Cheers! He has promised.

Christmas in Isyesye

We listen, amused, to Jingle Bells blaring from the village music center… “Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one horse open sleigh.” Horses are almost non-existent, and no one knows what a sleigh is. There’s no classic snow-covered pine trees and soft, golden light streaming from cozy homes. There’s no glazed ham, cookies and candy, family togetherness and reunions.

Christmas in East Africa comes with the sound of roaring rains. The landscape is water logged and bursting with green. The streams and rivers roar their muddy way down the mountains. It’s time to plant lettuce and peas and beans and carrots as soon as the sun shines enough to dry out the garden a little. Instead of family reunions there’s seminars, the Tanzanian church tradition. Instead of huge elaborate meals, there’s large practical pots of the basics just to keep the crowd feed.

I stepped around the many mud puddles on my way to the produce market, my basket swinging and my eyes drawn to the mountain, which is now a patchwork of green fields and gardens. I buy a watermelon from one vendor, some tomatoes from another, and a bowl of peas from yet another. I stop at the butcher for 2 kilo of fresh beef and take a bucket of wheat berries to the mill to get ground, and to yet another shop up the street for a gallon of milk. The beef is humbly submerged in greasy broth and the classic Tanzanian ‘mchuzi’ simmers on the stove. Five loaves of bread rise in the oven for chai the next morning. We lay out student mats in the school for the 20 visitors coming…one big room for the ladies and another for the men. It’s time for the Christmas seminar!

A whole van load came from Ivuna, which was an incredibly special treat. We were so blessed that they sacrificed their time and money to travel during their busy farming season.

the first day was open for Maji ya Uzima students (Lamp and Light students) About 25 students came.

The second day was focused on the Ivuna, Kiwira, and Isyesye churches.
Our faithful “Mama Maziwa” cooking brought lunch both days. That was so helpful as cooking supper and morning chai for the visitors spending the night was about all Esther and I could manage.
Jeshua, with his three favorite friends: Henry, Joseph, and Medson
Amy and a few of her friends at the Deeper Life seminar.
Squeezed into the week was a baptism in Kiwria for Anodi and Kashbeti…such a happy occasion. And communion services. All so poignantly meaningful together with the precious Ivuna people. It’s hard to describe the joy on each face, the tears of love and gratefulness, and the overwhelming beauty of brotherhood.

The happy times were mixed with burdens for those vacillating between right and wrong, for those making wrong choices. Sometimes the battle to make a difference in this old world seems discouraging at best. But this Christmas week was a gift. The joy and peace on these faces was a gift greater then anything else could have been.

And now the week is over and gone. The heavy gray skies are drizzling rain for the past 24 hours and I’m doing nothing, except all the everythings of keeping my people fed and clothed and happy. We’re also cleaning a lot of termites out of the house as they come winging in by the hundreds after a rain. Frying them in oil would be some practical protein, but I decline. The rainy season flu hit most of the children, so there’s many cups of tea and lots of garlic rubs and cozy quiet. I’m thankful for people and seminars and action and then…I’m thankful for rest.

Cheers to the New Year!

of joy and sorrow

This has been a busy few months…full of lots of special times, intense ministry, and normal mundane days. It has been a mix of joy and sorrow, of work and rest, of tears and laughter. I think it is amazing how God specializes in sending us the perfect mixture. He knows when we need rest, He knows the sorrow and what He wants to teach us through it. He brings the perplexing people and situations to exercise us and teach us to rely on His wisdom.

We had the fun of having Tim’s brother Nathan, his wife, and oldest son visit. It was the first time one of Tim’s siblings visited Tanzania! We canned and froze a lot of mangoes during their visit and we hiked Ngozi Crater together one day, trying to soak up our precious week together.

One of the beautiful crevices of Southern Tanzania
Our children were overjoyed at having a cousin around! It had been almost four years since they had seen each other.
Nathan and Helen
The beginning of Dec we had our retreat. This year four couples came from the states…including all our mission leaders. This is the whole group, visitors from the states and Tanzanian residents. We had a lovely six days together, lots of talking, singing, story times, devotions, brother’s meetings, and tea times.
The Mbeya group
Our family
Theondra was definitely the children’s Most Favorite Person by the time retreat was over. She had brought a delightful stash of craft supplies, fun things for the toddlers…and a pinata!
Jenny, Amy, and Esta
boys on the merry-go-round
We’ve had many retreats here…each one adding to the stash of special memories
Organizing the children’s play time
On Saturday we took rides to the zoo and had a picnic.
Beverly brought this spread for the couple’s time. Wow! I think we totally forgot what such things look and taste like.
Only a week after we were back into normal life here in Isyesye, we had to say goodbye to Rashmin and her mother. This child is the innocent one who suffers from her mother’s choices. We don’t know for sure where they are, but we know that they are out in a big world alone. Please pray for Janette, that she would turn back to the God who loves her and wants to give her hope and a future.

In Paul’s letter to the Thessalonians, he mentioned their work of faith, labor of love, and patience of hope in the Lord Jesus Christ. I’ve especially been encouraged with the words “patience of hope.” In the ESV it is worded “steadfastness of hope.” Our work is empty without faith in a God who designed man’s free will, without love our labor is in vain, and without steadfastness hope is quickly lost.

“In the Lord Jesus Christ” is also significant. It is only when we work and labor for Jesus that we can keep ahold of faith, love, and steadfastness. Any other motive is a shaky foundation at best.

So in this mixture of joy and sorrow, I cling to Hope. Hope what God will still do in His kingdom and hope in the coming resurrection. Steadfast in hope…because HE IS.

A Precipice, Daisy Chains, and Harsh Realities

Amy Carmichael once had a dream:

“The tom-toms thumped straight on all night and the darkness shuddered round me like a living, feeling thing. I could not go to sleep, so I lay awake and looked; and I saw, as it seemed, this:

That I stood on a grassy sward, and at my feet a precipice broke sheer down into infinite space. I looked, but saw no bottom; only cloud shapes, black and furiously coiled, and great shadow-shrouded hollows, and unfathomable depths. But I drew back, dizzy at the depth.

Then I saw forms of people moving single file along the grass. They were making for the edge. There was a woman with a baby in her arms and another small child holding on to her dress. She was on the very edge. Then I saw that she was blind. She lifted her foot for the next step…it trod air. She was over, and the children over with her. Oh, the cry as they went over!

Then I saw more streams of people flowing from all quarters. All were blind, stone blind; all made straight for the precipice edge.

There were shrieks, as they suddenly knew themselves to be falling, and a tossing up of the helpless arms, catching, clutching at empty air. But some went over quietly, and fell without a sound.

Then I wondered, with a wonder that was simply agony, why no one stopped them at the edge. I could not. I was glued to the ground, and I could only call; though I strained and tried, only a whisper would come.

Then I saw that along the edge there were sentries set at intervals. But the intervals were too great; there were wide, unguarded gaps between. And over those gaps the people fell in thier blindness, quiet unwarned; and the green grass seemed blood red to me, and the gulf yawned like the mouth of hell… “

Amy Carmichael’s vivid dream goes on. She describes groups of peaceful people busily making daisy chains under shade trees, hearing the cries but not taking responsibility for the lives of the falling souls. They are too busy making daisy chains. Every once in a while one person makes his way to the precipice edge to stop as many souls as he can catch ahold of.

Her analogy is a graphic description of Jesus’ words, “Lift up your eyes, and look on the fields, for they are white already to harvest.” St John 4:35

Reading this as a young person, I would have thought that it is only up to me. That surely if I would cry out to souls and tell them of the danger they would quickly turn away from it. A wave of passionate invincibility would wash over me to be one of those sentries. But there’s one part of the story that is missing in this analogy. What if the sentries were there? What if that woman and her small baby were stopped and warned? What if she gratefully agreed to the danger ahead and joined the peaceful group of people under the shade tree for a time? And then….what if she chose to get up and hurry toward the precipice once again? What if there’s nothing the sentries could do to change her mind?

(the remainder of this post is notes from Brother Jason Smith’s devotional at our recent Retreat. Your well articulated words were a gift)

Jesus said the harvest is plentious. That leaves only the plucking of the ripe grain, which sounds easy enough, we think. We get the idea that the harvest WILL be plentious. Is that what we have experienced? No.

We leave home and all we’ve ever known to the tune of “We’ve got the power in the name of Jesus.” We read scriptures like 2 Corinthians 2:14: “Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place.” Or verses such as: Isaiah 54:17 “No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper, and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgement thou shalt condemn…”

These scriptures evoke triumph and invincibility. But instead, we hit miles of red tape, we’ve been kicked out, we’ve had setbacks, sickness, disappointments, sin. We fail, our fellow workers fail. The ones we rescue sometimes fall away. Does it match the scriptures and songs? No. That invincibility melts and sometimes disappears altogether.

So what do we do?

We can become cynical. We assume the worst possible motives from others and…yes, from God Himself. We feel as if we’ve held up our end of the deal, but God is not holding up his end. We see problems instead of souls and the harvest becomes a metaphor.

We can give up. Giving up doesn’t always mean going home (if you’re working overseas). Like Peter, we can simply say, “I’m going fishing” subconsciously giving up hope of the harvest and focusing on something easier.

We can become complacent. We say, “we need only to be faithful and leave the rest to God. The harvest promised becomes a distant eventuality. We have the promise that the church will remain and stand strong till the end of time but do we think, “well, perhaps other places but not here?”

We can wait on the Lord. This man waits on the Lord and calls on Him continually to fulfill His promises. He holds on to the promises of God. He remembers what God has already done, in order to hold on to His faithfulness. The waiter examines himself and allows God to purify his heart. The waiter remembers that in the great eternal now all things are already fulfilled.

“Let us not grow weary in well-doing, for in due season we shall reap if we faint not.”

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I sat and listened to these words while tears pushed out of the corners of my eyes and down my cheeks. I’ve had all these responses. I read the poems about “the heathen in darkness bound, yearning and groaning for deliverance,” I had read all those scripture verses, allowing the thrill of it to fuel my way across the ocean. But what if the people are satisfied with their drunkenness, fighting, and stale religion? What if our voice is seemingly drowned in the crowd’s mad frolicking over the precipice? What if it seems as if we’re only a faintly burning wick instead of light on the hill?

Will we still wait on the Lord, knowing His promises ARE being fulfilled? Can we still wait in hope?

“It is not the place where we are, or the work that we do or cannot do that matter, it is something else. It is the fire within that burns and shines, whatever be our circumstance.” ~Amy Carmichael

And that fire will shine out…one person, one soul at at time.

Shout on, my dear ones! It is still our responsibility to be sentries on the edge of the precipice.

Jakaranda Beauty

My husband is indefatigable and passionate about his work. I love that about him. He’s also creative in making time for his family. I love that about him too. One Saturday this lovely month of October, with the Jakaranda trees in full bloom, he proposed we take a few hours to ride around town and take in the beauty. It was a lovely idea.

Bougainvillea and Jakaranda combination
Our two sweet peas
And our three young striplings
Jakaranda trees with the hazy Mbeya peak in the background
A special connection

Did you know these trees bloom their brightest at the very end of dry season? Can we also bloom our brightest when our environment is parched? God promises we can. “For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green, and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.” Jeremiah 17:8

Perhaps your parched ground is loneliness or grief. Perhaps you’ve been betrayed or misused. Perhaps life hasn’t fulfilled your long held dreams. Right now your roots can go deep searching out the Living Water. And you will bloom bright.

Bloom on.

October Kaleidoscope

The moon rises, a round red ball above the horizon. Dust hangs in the air. We’re grateful there’s no wind tonight at least. Yesterday the wind flung clouds of dust into the air and a whirlwind roared down the road and across the compound, an inferno of dust and trash. The Jakaranda trees are in full bloom–breathtakingly beautiful in the otherwise drab landscape. Anything green which has survived the last 6 months is coated in dust…and we all wait breathlessly for rain.

And then it comes. Dark clouds. Wind. A roar of rain on distant tin roofs. The roar comes closer. The children stare bewildered.”Mom, what is going on?” “It’s going to RAIN! Quickly pick up your toys outside!” It took saying it three times before it sank in, and then oh, the yelling and scrambling and squeals of delight. The roar becomes louder and then starts splattering on our roof. Kasia cries, terrified at the noise, and is utterly bewildered at the sight of water coming from the sky. (has she actually forgotten?!)

The whole world seems to stand in silence. Muffled gray clouds skuttle across the sky. It rained.

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Our rain drenched world

This month has been like a kaleidoscope. Full of intense battle, beauty, pain, and joy all swirling together in bright colors. Each contributing to the whole beautiful picture. Remarkably the hardest and the most painful things are the brightest colors in this spiritual kaleidoscope. Mostly we are learning that when we are weak, God is strong. When we have no words and no wisdom, God speaks. When we are desperate, God answers. A new awareness of this spiritual reality has made me beg God for more and more of HIM. I’m thankful for the kaleidoscope of experiences that God brings into our lives and the design He is detailing.

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One of the bigger challenges and joys has been the arrival of Jeanette and her baby girl. Her story is an intensely sad story of abuse and neglect. She came because she had no one who cared and nowhere to go. A mere child herself, with little knowledge of God and His love for her…battered about with earth’s cruelty. So she’s here. And after two weeks, I feel like asking God, “and now what?” My answer came when my sweet friend Kim messaged me Ann Voskamp’s words, “The best investment of your life is to love exactly when it’s most inconvenient. If I won’t be inconvenienced, I can’t know love. Am I willing to live an inconvenient life? The brokenness of people is never truly an intrusion. Loving broken people when it is inconvenient is the way to have fuller inclusion in the life of Christ.”

And so we say ‘yes’ to the journey.

Janette’s four-month-old baby is threatening to capture my whole heart. I’ve tried to focus on helping her be a good mother, reminding myself this is an opportunity to love, to give them a chance at life–not adoption. But this child is irresistible. We’re already attached to her. And without me knowing what happened, it has brought the pain of it all out fresh again. Like ripping the scab off a nearly healed wound, leaving it bleeding and raw again. I wanted it neatly healed and for it to stay that way always.

Instead, God teaches me that love doesn’t grasp, neither does it choose when and how to love. Clasping a child into my arms as mine would come much more naturally than loving for a season, and then seeing them move on. Being able to keep this child would be much easier than putting in time and effort, in the end knowing that she is still at the mercy of her mother’s decisions.

But God wants to love through us according to His plan and purpose. That is more beautiful than hanging on to our own ideas of how we want to love and serve. We grasp the kaleidoscope and insist on pouring in our own colored sand, in the design we choose. But God knows the colors and textures that will bring out the brightest results, in our lives and in the lives of those He brings our way.

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Isn’t she precious?!

Can I trust Him? Can you? Can we say with strong faith, “that He will perfect that which concerns me? As we chose to trust, the bumpy inconvenient things turn into joy. Rarely glamorous–just one act of obedience at a time.

A few more colorful highlights:

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The group who traveled to Sumbawanga a few weeks ago for preaching seminars.
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SALT discipleship classes
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A picnic a fun in the woods with the dear Kiwira folks
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A weekend with these precious ladies.

School Begins…(and other small things)

We are more thankful then usual for the gifts of books, after weeks of trying to find a way to get them across the ocean. But here we, three weeks into the school year! I am totally enjoying the quiet structure to our days and the four students with their noses into books. Unfortunately they don’t all love books as much as I do… The Math pretests are done, and now we’re off to learning all the new, exciting things for this year. I’m slowly learning as I go with high school credits and things pertaining..and so thankful for the resources available.

The fifth child is consistently noisy, bouncing from desk to desk trying to get attention from everyone, distracting and saying funny things.. I started a few preschool things with her which delight her endlessly, “Mama, teach me my BBC’s!” “Mom! teach me SCIENCE.” She trails on behind in age, and feels it sorely, thinking by all means she should be allowed to have light-units and science books too. She’s learning to have one-half hour quiet times by herself on the couch, which gives the classroom a break. But mostly we look forward to when she’s 3 and can have real preschool books and a desk. For right now we learn the sounds and numbers and read The Pokey Little Puppy endlessly. “Mom….read a poky puppy a me?” She is addicted to that ragged little book and has it half memorized. I try to be as excited about it as she is. =)

One of our family hobbies is to explore remote corners of this beautiful country. One Saturday we decided to escape the dust of Mbeya and drive to the Tukuyu rain forests. Words don’t do justice to the beauty.
enjoying Mama Anita’s new baby.
Tim started a Creation to Christ class every Sunday evening.

Through the joys and the battles, we’re keenly aware of our weakness. Trusting in our God who has promised “to present us faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy!”